Phew, i cannot believe how much has happened in 3 years, I took my first shower since removing the nuss bar and had my first real look at the results.
I don’t know what to say yet since i feel I’m still in shock just as after the first surgery, getting used to how you look was a hard thing before and sure is going to be now aswell, i kind of liked how i looked just before the removal, and Seeing myself now its very hard to know how I’m actually supposed to look like. Since the removal my chest has sunk in a bit, i cannot deny that, and so far i have only heard my father say that it looks like it sunk in a bit but that i look “not un-normal”, I’m a bit panicky still and i have to try to relax and deal with this, now is literally the time to start trying to live with myself again and i should be happy its over and that I’m in a recuperating period. It is hard though, both relaxing physically and mentally after this big ordeal. What i know for sure though is that i cannot wait until it doesn’t hurt anymore so i can start training again, because when i’m finally able to start working on my body again i can probably start getting comfortable with my body quicker and easier, because its like my sculpture to sculpt and I want to look as good and normal as possible after all of this.
I don’t really know how i feel right now as i’m very anxious and it feels like time is at a still because i want time to fly by so i can get healthy. But as long as i feel i look normal enough i guess it’s fine for the moment.